You are now 6 years old and probably not allowed on the computer by yourself but in a few years you will be and I hope to God that you Google your name and find this blog that your real parents have dedicated to you to help other families being torn apart like ours was. We want you to know that CPS took you away from many people who love you very very much. We are all still so very heartbroken sometimes it’s hard for me to just go about life without you. I miss your kisses and hugs and I miss reading to you and playing with your Cars cars. For a while right after I bought you the movie I began purchasing toy Cars every time I went to the store. We wanted to be the parents who took you to Disneyland, we wanted to be the parents who took you to school on your first day. If you were still with us I would not be working, I would be a dedicated stay-at-home mommy who would pick you up from school too. No daycare, no afterschool programs for you to have to wait at all afternoon. I would have done your homework with you everyday just like I did for your sisters, Kayla and Alex. We would be going to the park at least two times a week and you would have helped me find new things to add to your Spongebob collection. We would be making cookies and cupcakes together, we would be cleaning up your room together, you would go shopping with me and on the way home we would stop and get ice cream cones. I would let you play hookie from school once or twice so we can have a fun day together, just me and you. We would all go to Magic Mountain and in the winter time we would go to SnowHill in Big Bear. I would be teaching you math with flash cards, I would be explaining to you why the sky is blue. Daddy would teach you the planets and the solar system. Either me or Daddy would help you with your school projects and we would volunteer to go with your class on field trips. These are all the things we did with your brothers and sisters for years and years. It’s really ridiculous that CPS took you away from us, well, more than riduculous but for this post I will try to keep my words focused on trying to let you know that your real family is a good family no matter what CPS or the Ra__os__i people have told you. Please keep looking on this site for my videos of our story so you know what we were really like. I want to share some more pictures with you. Two days ago was your Sissy Kayla’s birthday. She turned 19 years old. She was there when you were born and helped Mommy a lot when you were little. You both loved each other very much.